I just wanted to post something about this word real quick before I went to bed. <Integrity>. I just asked myself what it meant to me before today and I realized that it meant nothing at all… but why though? Do you ever think about what your integrity means to you? My mother has shared so much with me tonight and I just want to talk about it a little bit. We read today that, integrity and contentment are RICHES OF THE SOUL. I found that phrase so powerful! ” Integrity is a key to living without anxiety” when we have nothing to hide we have nothing to fear…but I didn’t always know that. There were times when I used to lie so much. I used to just lie and hide things and cover up so much ugliness inside and around me such that it almost became a part of me. I lost my integrity. I could not be trusted to speak the truth. about anything. It makes me sad to know that i let such an awful experience dictate so much of what was supposed to be ME. Who the hell wants to even know such a person?
That’s one problem I faced with being exposed to this sort of relationship. I had too much to hide. I think I was in denial such that i hid the truth even from myself.. My mother told me today that, Shakespeare said somewhere that in order to be truthful to others, we must first start by being truthful to ourselves. Never have I heard anything so pure! I WANT to be truthful to myself. I WANT to spew forth goodness from the gruesomeness that was my life for so long. I WANT to be a woman of integrity and so I am glad that I have taken the steps towards that. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. I am determined that only goodness will come from all of this negativity because I believe that it is my purpose. I HAVE to do this. I have to start that non profit foundation for girls. I NEED to help other people. Our integrity is such a sad thing to lose! but lets all start today. Start by speaking the truth to yourself about all things. It is never to late to make a change and rebuild your life!